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I figured I might as well finish these recaps so I can get back to using this space to tell cute adorable stories about my two roommates – the ones of the five and under variety.

Plus. I’m ready to kiss six rounds of chemo goodbye. Not a long kiss- a short awkward peck on the cheek because I’m not at all sad to watch it from the rear view mirror.

Alright. We got smart these last few rounds. We shipped the ladies off the grandparents for the majority of the week. The girls have been wonderful through all of this- but the last few hit them hard. They turned into little barnacles making it impossible to lay in bed while binging on shows targeted towards teenagers. So off to grandmas they went- where they had a LOT more fun (I mean. My parents have a pool. And take them to the toy store).

So. Basically I laid in bed. Eating horrible food (a mix of steroids and nausea means I didn’t make good choices). Just biding time between doctors appointments every day and praying for Friday to come sooner. And gaining 15 lbs (thank you steroids. and lemon meringue pie).

Round five came and went. Round six came and went.

When I first started I honestly thought at the end of round 6 I would feel like celebrating hard. Instead I finished and started crying. I still catch myself crying out of sheer thankfulness that the chemo portion of this “journey” is over. It was probably one of the hardest things I’ve ever had to do- I mean where was all of this when I was writing my college essays about lifes hardships? Most of my symptoms are gone and i still don’t feel celebratory, i won’t until May 26th when i get my PET scan which will seal my fate. Because my good friend lymphoma is either still there- or it isn’t (crazy right?! one or the other. bet you didnt see that coming). and only that PET scan will give us the answer.

and yes its 2 weeks out and i’m already having PET scan nightmares.

So. until May 26th we’re in a holding pattern. trying to get back to what our lives looked like before December 8th. I’m back to the gym, carting the girls to their activities, and it feels so good being able to watch them by myself for full days at a time. i finally feel like a FUN parent. i’m able to play with them (mostly) keep up with them, and they’re no longer riding the “mom’s not feeling well i can get away with stuff” train. Ive also curbed my online shopping habits- laying in bed all day really lends itself to a little too much web time.

oh yeah. and i FINALY got a wig! i still usually go bald. . . but some days i just want to hide the cancer.

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  • May 12, 2017 - 8:10 am

    Cathy - The last picture says it all.

  • May 12, 2017 - 9:46 am

    Heidi - You are beautiful with or without your hair. So glad that light is shining at the end of this horrible tunnel. GREAT NEWS IS COMING YOUR WAY ON MAY 26TH.
    Hugs and Kisses

  • May 12, 2017 - 7:48 pm

    Sara - SO.

    Celebrations start May 26?

  • May 13, 2017 - 7:11 am

    Joseph - Awesome to hear that 6 has come and gone. I will continue to pray for you and your family throughout your life. I am hopeful for the PET scan results to be negative. I am thankful for your MD and all your caretakers who cared for you. I am thankful for the technology we have to fight cancer and win. I am thankful for Mike being by your side; your parents able to help with the kids; and the joyful youth of your children who bring joy and love into your life. GOD BLESS!
    – Pece be with you.

  • May 13, 2017 - 8:00 pm

    julie - You amaze me. I still can’t believe this is happening, but you have been so honest and real through it all. And I admire the sh*t out of you. You truly are gorgeous inside and out and I am beyond honored to have you as a friend. LOVE YOU.

  • May 15, 2017 - 11:21 am

    Blair - You are such a strong woman, you’ve conquered the 6 rounds of chemo like a beast! I cannot imagine what it is like to ensure dealing with that and babies. I imagine it is a good distraction for the grandparents to have the grandbabies instead of obsessing over their baby going through this! Praying hard and long that May 26 gives you the all clear! What is it about chemo and lemon flavors?

  • May 15, 2017 - 8:52 pm

    Desiree - I’m calling it. May 26th is one big, bad a$s celebration.
    Love you, friend.

  • May 16, 2017 - 6:51 am

    Liz - I somehow missed this! And I was actually wondering if you were going to post a round 5 and 6 “recap” if you will. I’m so sorry.
    I’m so, SO happy for you that the official chemo rounds are over and you can get some semblance back of your regular, every day life! You are one strong mama and kicked those chemo rounds in the a$$ and to the curb. Fingers crossed for May 26th and we can start the celebration that night! Love you so much! xo

  • May 20, 2017 - 9:47 am

    Laura Keenan - Thinking about you lots as May 26th approaches! Hoping lots of celebrating is in your future. Pitbull dance party perhaps?!

  • May 22, 2017 - 2:26 pm

    Jen Cantway - You are a real life SUPER HERO!!! Sending all the positive thoughts I can on May 26th!!! YOU GOT THIS!

  • June 2, 2017 - 2:13 pm

    Lauren - You are amazing and so strong! Incredible!! Warrior woman!! Love the last picture!!

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