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Our summer rapidly came to a close last week when lex launched herself into kindergarten. If there’s one thing lex seems to do well it’s big life transitions (except getting a sister. that one rocked her world for a solid 10 months) – and she seems to be handling kindergarten flawlessly.

I even have a major crush on her teacher because lex comes home saying things like “if you don’t have anything nice to say- just don’t say it”, and “ms brown told us if we don’t like what someone’s eating for lunch we should just keep it inside. So when I saw Chloe had cheese dippers and they looked bad I didn’t tell her. I kept it inside”, and “Angie told me there’s a teacher at school named Mr. Chin- but we aren’t allowed to make fun of him”… such words of wisdom from a 5 year old.

I feel like the lady in the back to school video everyone’s been watching. “You’re going to help me teach my kid not to be an ass hole? I’ll be room mom! And I’ll be the best damn room mom ever”.

Oh yes. Mike thinks he “maybe accidentally checked that box” on the online paperwork. But I have been looking for a new challenge since chemo ended. So bring it on K5.

Now k. Dear sweet k. Who starts preschool this week and isn’t going to know what hit her for three hours, three times a week. I mean the girl needs a crash course in 1. Time away from me and 2. Playing with kids her age. I have a feeling it’s going to be a rough transition for her (I mean she’s been going to kids club at the gym for a year and still managed to cry for 30 minutes last week after I dropped her off. They watch iPads and built forts- I assure you she’s not hard done by).

I’m off to the hotter than hell land of Palm Springs this week for a little girls trip. One involving lots of power influencers and hopefully a lot of rose and avocado toast. It’s weird spending four days with nine girls you’ve “met” online. But alas every single Instagram relationship I’ve had turning IRL relationship hasn’t been awkward. So here’s hoping these aren’t either. And there’s nothing I love more than getting to know a group of girls in my swimsuit (barf).

and now for pictures totally unrelated to anything in this post. . . but the girls are cute soooo.

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  • September 4, 2017 - 5:16 pm

    Sara - OOOH. You changed your blog! Lex is a natural at kindergarten… can’t wait to see how K does with pre-school. I bet she’ll love it in no time… I mean, how can she not?! Well… except for the whole getting dirty part. Have fun in Palm Springs… don’t replace me! 🙂

  • September 5, 2017 - 7:47 am

    Courtney Spena - New blog design!! LOVE IT!

    I can’t wait to see your Palm Springs trip!

  • September 5, 2017 - 9:02 am

    Heidi - The girls are adorable. Lex looks just like you, as you already. You look fabulous and so glad things are going well.
    Take care.
    Hugs and Kisses to you all

  • September 5, 2017 - 1:02 pm

    Rosie - Rosie Parsons Photography - Her teacher sounds really awesome. My kids started school today and I am beyond grateful for free education – it’s amazing really when you think about it! I’m very relieved it’s not all down to me, lol!

  • September 5, 2017 - 1:43 pm

    Joseph Gray - Congrats on your negative PET scan.

    Peace be with you.

alright party people. in approximately 30 days (not that I’m counting or anything) i’ll have TWO children in school. You read that right, i’ll have a whopping three mornings a week to work on my mom-bod, grocery shop, and try to squeeze in every single doctor, nail, and lash appointment into a three hour time span. oh and to catch up on the television thats too inappropriate for my children, and too trashy for my husband.

i know sending your kids off to school is bittersweet, i know i should feel “all of the feels” but the girls are so damn excited to go- its hard not to get swept up in the excitement right along with them. plus i LOVE back to school shopping (shoes, clothes, and supplies). K is starting preschool. A play based preschool. Which means i need to send her in clothes that will go the distance- they need to hold up under the most extreme paint, dirt, and mud pit circumstances. they’ll be washed approx. 10,000 times for about 10,000 various stains. Meanwhile Lex is starting kindergarten- so she wants a more grown up wardrobe- but one that’s still playful and fun (and one that she can have an opinion about). they both also need shoes- of the closed toe variety. and i dont want to compromise style for functionality- thankfully we happen to know of a brand that does it all.

enter Boden!

we LOVE Boden .  i’m a huge fangirl of their tights, knits, and everything in between. everything just seems to hold up- and I’ve passed more than a few things from lex to k. i LOVE that you can mix and match just about anything on their site and you can’t go wrong! so with the girls going back to school and back to cool heres a glimpse of what they’ll be rocking this year.





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  • August 8, 2017 - 7:22 am

    Karie - Love the red boots!

  • August 8, 2017 - 7:26 am

    Natasha - Just flipped their their catalogue! Love their bright graphic tees and prints! Would be perfect to kick-start Ethan’s kindergarten wardrobe!

  • August 8, 2017 - 7:30 am

    Chloe - Love this giveaway! And love your blog. So glad you are back!

  • August 8, 2017 - 7:48 am

    Ally Dewildt - I don’t know who is more obsessed with the rainbow high tops, one of us is 37 and the other is 6! Need to go into my cart asap.

  • August 8, 2017 - 8:10 am

    Amanda Bradshaw - Mini Boden clothing is so dang cute! I’d love those overalls on my kindergartener!

  • August 8, 2017 - 8:20 am

    Chelsea Fischer - I think I commented on the wrong post before… trying again! Obsessed with those overalls for back to school! We LOVE Boden – super high quality clothes that are SO cute.

  • August 8, 2017 - 8:23 am

    Julie - I love Mini Boden! My baby starts kindergarten next week and we would love some new outfits! Those overalls are amazing.

  • August 8, 2017 - 8:27 am

    Rachael - Your posts crack me up. I love seeing new ones!!

  • August 8, 2017 - 8:34 am

    Rachelle bell - Boden has the best stuff!

  • August 8, 2017 - 8:59 am

    Katie - Such cute girls! And such cute clothes!

  • August 8, 2017 - 8:59 am

    Brittany - Love the leggings!

  • August 8, 2017 - 9:01 am

    Jillian senner - Please!! Amazing stuff!

  • August 8, 2017 - 9:02 am

    sara - I MUST WIN THIS!! I need all the Boden!!

  • August 8, 2017 - 9:20 am

    K S - These photos of your girls are wonderful! Love your style, love your story!

  • August 8, 2017 - 10:21 am

    Kayla - Love the overalls!! and the peter pan collar sweater 🙂

  • August 8, 2017 - 11:14 am

    Madison Brower - Those overalls! Do they make them in adult sizes??

  • August 8, 2017 - 11:34 am

    Christy East - We LOVE Mini Boden Clothes!!!

  • August 8, 2017 - 11:38 am

    Jaclyn - We love Boden

  • August 8, 2017 - 11:38 am

    B - Oh I love Boden and that my little boy can match my little girls! WIN! I adore all of their dresses with my dress obsessed little girls, I also love the peter pan collar shirts under the jumpers and under overalls. Must have it all and with three littles to dress, this would be fantastic 🙂

  • August 8, 2017 - 2:23 pm

    Corinne Wright - I am seriously loving those rainbow sneakers! And I always love Boden’s applique t-shirts and dresses. So pretty, soft, and durable!

  • August 8, 2017 - 2:29 pm

    Nicole H - I just LOVE LOVE LOVE the Navy Cat Animal Overall Dress. It is so adorable and perfect for my cat-loving daughter.

  • August 8, 2017 - 5:49 pm

    Sam - Loved reading your blog, wish you wrote more but I 100% get it. You’re crushing it in every other part of your life! Also love Boden!

  • August 8, 2017 - 6:00 pm

    crystal - Glad to have your posts back! LOVE these outfits!!

  • August 8, 2017 - 6:23 pm

    Courtney Ramsey - SO DARN CUTE!

  • August 9, 2017 - 6:51 am

    Jolene - So many cute things. I have a twirly girl, so the first place I go is to the SKIRTS section! But I also am a fan of their leggings and jackets.

  • August 9, 2017 - 6:39 pm

    Kim - So much cuteness! Your girls always look adorable! Right now I’m loving the airplane dress that we are thinking of getting to an upcoming trip!

  • August 11, 2017 - 7:55 am

    Malia - I’ve got a dress obsessed girl so that’s where I head first

  • August 11, 2017 - 8:02 am

    Morgan Suarez - Eeeee I hope I win!

  • August 11, 2017 - 8:02 am

    Sabrina - I love those overalls!!

  • August 11, 2017 - 8:34 am

    Laura - The red boots did me in.

  • August 11, 2017 - 4:48 pm

    Anna Pry - my daughters would love to mix and match the big applique t-shirts and fun leggings

  • August 14, 2017 - 1:38 am

    Ly - Are you kidding me with these pics? SOOO ADORABLE

  • August 14, 2017 - 11:25 am

    Stephanie Murphy - My daughter is starting preschool in 3 weeks and would love to wear the Animal Overall Dress! Super cute!

  • August 18, 2017 - 9:40 pm

    Danielle carlson - Love those rainbow hightops the mostest but there are so many other great statement pieces I would love to buy.

  • August 19, 2017 - 5:34 am

    Naomi - I love Bodens style and definitely need clothes for my daughter that can hold up to the wash. I’m thinking of starting capsule wardrobes for my kids and this would be a great place to start!

  • August 19, 2017 - 2:27 pm

    Rachael - Love the striped top with the Peter Pan collar

I’m baaaaaaack. Reporting to you live from the couch where k has decided to take her cat nap. Because heaven forbid she nap in her real bed so I can get a few hours to myself. Girlfriend is lucky she’s adorable. Mondays are usually my cushy day. My MIL takes the girls one at a time- so nap time is my only time to catch up on the tv shows Mike refuses to watch with me (things like the real housewives & famous in love).

anyhow. lately I’ve been lacking any sort of outlet. i haven’t been taking pictures, i haven’t been working out- i haven’t really felt like ME.  Now that I’m back to the gym (hallelujah. this lemon meringue pie weight isn’t going to lose itself), i have endorphins (endorphins make you happy!), and i want to start taking pictures again. bonus points that my new little camera shoots video easily- and i’m just hipster enough to make mini-movies of the ladies.

The weather lately has been spring perfection. Its not too hot, its not too cold and all you need is a light jacket. Which is fortunate because lately lex has been begging to wear her bikini to school (that girl loves to show her abs. first her obsession with jazz tops and now bikinis). I have yet to actually give into her requests – mostly because she comes home covered in paint from her bow to her shoes and everything in between. . . her wardrobe is really excited for kindergarten.

i wish i could say we’ve been more interesting than that. but its monday. and i have 0 stellar stories to dazzle you with to prove i have the cutest, smartest, and bestest babes ever (i’d settle for best dressed).

And that it. You get a whopping 3.5 paragraphs for my first non-cancer blog post.

romper / hat



girls suits

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  • May 15, 2017 - 11:33 pm

    Ly - Two terrible but amazing movie quotes in one post? Legend.

    Did you get a new camera? What kind? Share share the details!

    sending lots of love your way! x

  • May 16, 2017 - 6:22 am

    Sara - YES. what is this new camera you speak of?! Tell K I said she needs to start feeling better. April 15th weather isn’t going to last forever. I’d love you for you to drop off my workout motivation. Maybe we need to be buds? I’m totally texting you about this later.

  • May 16, 2017 - 6:46 am

    Liz - LOVE IT! And love your new camera!!! Share the videos because you are amazing at them! So glad you’re feeling like your old self again! Bring on the photos!

  • May 16, 2017 - 7:11 am

    Crystal - You always capture the best photos! I want to know more about this new camera and I want to see some of those videos!!

  • May 20, 2017 - 9:28 am

    Laura Keenan - So happy to hear you are getting back into the gym and your camera! And I’m so excited for videos! And for you to teach me all the things!

  • August 8, 2017 - 8:19 am

    Chelsea Fischer - Obsessing over those overalls! We LOVE Boden – such high quality clothes that are so cute.

  • August 8, 2017 - 6:54 pm

    Whitney - Okay, first of all, Welcome baaaccck. Second,just posted tinny stories on Instagram the other day that people who speak fluent movie quote and insert it in to their vicublary like it ain’t no thang are my favorite because… Just when I thought it wasn’t possible to love you more! (I’m normal…promise!) Third, tell me more about this camera!? I want one that does both but is also somewhat easy to use! Any tips?

I figured I might as well finish these recaps so I can get back to using this space to tell cute adorable stories about my two roommates – the ones of the five and under variety.

Plus. I’m ready to kiss six rounds of chemo goodbye. Not a long kiss- a short awkward peck on the cheek because I’m not at all sad to watch it from the rear view mirror.

Alright. We got smart these last few rounds. We shipped the ladies off the grandparents for the majority of the week. The girls have been wonderful through all of this- but the last few hit them hard. They turned into little barnacles making it impossible to lay in bed while binging on shows targeted towards teenagers. So off to grandmas they went- where they had a LOT more fun (I mean. My parents have a pool. And take them to the toy store).

So. Basically I laid in bed. Eating horrible food (a mix of steroids and nausea means I didn’t make good choices). Just biding time between doctors appointments every day and praying for Friday to come sooner. And gaining 15 lbs (thank you steroids. and lemon meringue pie).

Round five came and went. Round six came and went.

When I first started I honestly thought at the end of round 6 I would feel like celebrating hard. Instead I finished and started crying. I still catch myself crying out of sheer thankfulness that the chemo portion of this “journey” is over. It was probably one of the hardest things I’ve ever had to do- I mean where was all of this when I was writing my college essays about lifes hardships? Most of my symptoms are gone and i still don’t feel celebratory, i won’t until May 26th when i get my PET scan which will seal my fate. Because my good friend lymphoma is either still there- or it isn’t (crazy right?! one or the other. bet you didnt see that coming). and only that PET scan will give us the answer.

and yes its 2 weeks out and i’m already having PET scan nightmares.

So. until May 26th we’re in a holding pattern. trying to get back to what our lives looked like before December 8th. I’m back to the gym, carting the girls to their activities, and it feels so good being able to watch them by myself for full days at a time. i finally feel like a FUN parent. i’m able to play with them (mostly) keep up with them, and they’re no longer riding the “mom’s not feeling well i can get away with stuff” train. Ive also curbed my online shopping habits- laying in bed all day really lends itself to a little too much web time.

oh yeah. and i FINALY got a wig! i still usually go bald. . . but some days i just want to hide the cancer.

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  • May 12, 2017 - 8:10 am

    Cathy - The last picture says it all.

  • May 12, 2017 - 9:46 am

    Heidi - You are beautiful with or without your hair. So glad that light is shining at the end of this horrible tunnel. GREAT NEWS IS COMING YOUR WAY ON MAY 26TH.
    Hugs and Kisses

  • May 12, 2017 - 7:48 pm

    Sara - SO.

    Celebrations start May 26?

  • May 13, 2017 - 7:11 am

    Joseph - Awesome to hear that 6 has come and gone. I will continue to pray for you and your family throughout your life. I am hopeful for the PET scan results to be negative. I am thankful for your MD and all your caretakers who cared for you. I am thankful for the technology we have to fight cancer and win. I am thankful for Mike being by your side; your parents able to help with the kids; and the joyful youth of your children who bring joy and love into your life. GOD BLESS!
    – Pece be with you.

  • May 13, 2017 - 8:00 pm

    julie - You amaze me. I still can’t believe this is happening, but you have been so honest and real through it all. And I admire the sh*t out of you. You truly are gorgeous inside and out and I am beyond honored to have you as a friend. LOVE YOU.

  • May 15, 2017 - 11:21 am

    Blair - You are such a strong woman, you’ve conquered the 6 rounds of chemo like a beast! I cannot imagine what it is like to ensure dealing with that and babies. I imagine it is a good distraction for the grandparents to have the grandbabies instead of obsessing over their baby going through this! Praying hard and long that May 26 gives you the all clear! What is it about chemo and lemon flavors?

  • May 15, 2017 - 8:52 pm

    Desiree - I’m calling it. May 26th is one big, bad a$s celebration.
    Love you, friend.

  • May 16, 2017 - 6:51 am

    Liz - I somehow missed this! And I was actually wondering if you were going to post a round 5 and 6 “recap” if you will. I’m so sorry.
    I’m so, SO happy for you that the official chemo rounds are over and you can get some semblance back of your regular, every day life! You are one strong mama and kicked those chemo rounds in the a$$ and to the curb. Fingers crossed for May 26th and we can start the celebration that night! Love you so much! xo

  • May 20, 2017 - 9:47 am

    Laura Keenan - Thinking about you lots as May 26th approaches! Hoping lots of celebrating is in your future. Pitbull dance party perhaps?!

  • May 22, 2017 - 2:26 pm

    Jen Cantway - You are a real life SUPER HERO!!! Sending all the positive thoughts I can on May 26th!!! YOU GOT THIS!

  • June 2, 2017 - 2:13 pm

    Lauren - You are amazing and so strong! Incredible!! Warrior woman!! Love the last picture!!

round four almost did me in. i honestly thought i had this whole “cancer” thing figured out. i was handling every round okay. and i didnt think our family had been affected that badly. and then there was round four.

to start with round 4 is a totally and complete mental f*ck. you’re more than halfway done- yet still have three rounds looming over your head. that combined with the cumulative effects of all of the chemo so far AND my 20% bump and it was a total and complete sh*t show.

i feel like i spent most of this round- and many of the days after in bed. in a complete and total funk- i was exhausted, nauseous, and exactly 0 fun. my mouth sores lasted far longer than they usually do. and my levels (WBC) dropped so low i was neutropenic for the first time ever. i also had my first fever scare.

Mackenzie refused to leave my side in bed during chemo week- even though my mom was here. she had some sort of cold (the same awesome cold thats making its rounds) and passed me her cold. it started just as chemo was coming to a close that week. and landed me in bed for DAYS. like couldn’t muster the strength to move. it gave me a super cool fever (as a cancer patient if you get a fever of 100.5 for longer than an hour its a sign of infection and NO GOOD i hit 101.6 for four hours). i started a round of antibiotics (thanks to the fever), and thankfully got it down before i had to go to the hospital so they could look for an infection.  my first blood test of the week my levels were fine- my second blood test of the week earned me a phone call from a nurse AND my doctor about how low my white blood cell count was and urging me to take necessary precautions with germs and the two germ infested children i’m currently living with.

thats when we decided to run to my parents house for the weekend. we needed to get out- but not actually out (because heaven forbid i get sick and have to postpone the next round of treatment). it was the perfect weekend. we had an extra set of hands to help, we got to go swimming, and the girls had a blast. it sidetracked our big plans to do a disney day as a family that sunday- but thankfully we rescheduled for Wednesday when my WBC had bounced back.

Monday we met with my doctor. we saw the writing on the wall that i wouldn’t have to endure another 20% bump in chemo for round 5. but he said my levels dropped so low, and my symptoms were so bad this round, that i’m going back down to round 3’s dosage. i sighed audibly with relief. as much as i know i have to endure two more rounds- the thought of doing so makes me dry heave. it got hard, and real, and i finally feel like a cancer patient (and i dont love it). so the chance to go down in dose AND still beat this in the end was such welcoming news. i know it’ll still be frustratingly hard. but hopefully focusing on only having to do this twice more will help. plus- we’re shipping the girls to my parents for the last half of chemo week in the hopes that its easier for everyone.

Things are getting harder and its getting hard to remain positive about the whole thing. so many times this round i thought “why me?!”, i have an increasing number of friends getting pregnant with their third- and when they complain about morning sickness i just want to yell “ITS NOT FAIR”. because they get a baby out of their nausea, and i just get to live (and hopefully get my hair back).  I hate complaining- I’ve never considered myself a complainer- but this round i threw myself many a pity party. i didn’t sign up for this mess. i don’t want to have to be “strong”, or a “warrior”, or to be bald. but alas, its what life has thrown our way. so here we are. doing our best to make the non-treatment weeks as normal & fun for the girls.

It took me a long time to hit “publish” on this post. Mostly because it’s so filled with complaints… but a wise woman (in the form of my mother in law) told me it was high time to tell the truth about what’s actually happening. And now that I’m on the other side of round five I promise that next post won’t be quite so “feel so sorry for me”.

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  • April 10, 2017 - 1:54 pm

    Sara - Always tell the truth. It’s why I love you so.

    And you have ONE LEFT. I can’t believe it.

    I love you. That is all.

  • April 10, 2017 - 5:25 pm

    Erinn Connolly - So proud of how strong you are even when you feel the weakest. You are incredible and inspiring, which probably comes across as cliche, but you are. I’m in awe of your strength and ability to keep life as normal as possible for the girls, I really dont know how you are doing it, but want you to keep it up and keep kicking cancer’s ass. All the love and light your way every day.

  • April 10, 2017 - 5:50 pm

    abbi hearne - the truth is good. cancer sucks balls. I hate that you’re going through this and I truly hope this round was the worst and it gets easier and you’re finished before you know it. xoxo

  • April 11, 2017 - 4:13 am

    Sarita - Keep it real, girl! This is the hardest battle you’ve ever had to fight and it’s a doozie! You are awesome. My prayers are with you and your family

  • April 11, 2017 - 4:33 am

    B - Girl, complain away! I think you deserve that and anything else you need/want to do. I cannot even imagine how hard it is – and then to add trying to stay positive … Your girls are so lucky to have you as their mom! You are doing an awesome job. That living part – that’s pretty important to them and (all of us internet stalkers :)) we want to see your pretty face (with or without hair) for many more years! virtual cheers with whatever alcoholic beverage you can keep down!

  • April 11, 2017 - 6:07 am

    Laura - Your honesty just continues to show your strength! thinking about you always friend!

  • April 11, 2017 - 7:01 am

    Joseph - You go right ahead and complain, Erin! Those who love you truly want to here it, so we feel like we are bearing some of the burden. Not doing that prevents us from praying and loving you properly. Your mother-in-law is completely right.

    Braden is 6 years cancer free now after enduring three years of therapy and bone marrow transplant. He went through it pretty well, and had the same feelings about not wanting to burden anyone. But, we learned that that’s not the best way to handle this curse and burden.

    God designed us to love one another. We can’t do that if we don’t know truly how yuo feel. God bless you. Live strong! But cry when you have to

  • April 11, 2017 - 8:52 am

    Sarah S. - You have every right to complain so don’t ever feel sorry for speaking your mind. Besides, it’s your blog. 😉 Stay strong! You are such an inspiration!

  • April 11, 2017 - 12:51 pm

    Cathy - Keep going beautiful girl. Sending you love from Canada.

  • April 11, 2017 - 4:31 pm

    Lauren - You are a warrior woman!

  • April 11, 2017 - 9:43 pm

    Candace Edwards - SO glad you told us how it is Mama! You are still a rockstar for going through this. Praying for you from the Midwest and cheering you on–even when you don’t think you can keep going.

  • April 13, 2017 - 9:34 pm

    Liz - I am constantly in awe of your strength. Even when you don’t feel like you’re being strong, you are. You might feel shitty and have no energy, but you’re fighting the hardest fight and coming out on top at the end. Your girls know just when you need a laugh or a hug and they are there for that. Your family has bonded together and as much as you feel like you’re “not contributing to society”, you are making life as normal and happy for your girls as possible and in the long run, that is all they’ll remember. Round 5 is now behind you and there’s only one more left! I know you want to slap me for saying that, but really, you’re on the home stretch! I love you so much. Keep kicking Bertha’s ass!

  • April 17, 2017 - 8:20 pm

    Desiree - I always feel like I’m at a complete loss for words. Because there are not enough ways to tell you that you are amazing, and you ARE strong, and you ARE a warrior. And, I’ve never, ever seen anyone as beautiful bald as you.
    What you’re going through, it’s not fair. And if anyone has earned the right to complain, it’s you. It’s a real sh*tty deal, and holy cow, you’re handling it so damn well.
    I won’t say all the cliche and frustrating things I want to say, but I will keep sending side hugs, and cheering you on, and telling you that damn it, you’re kicking ass.
    Love you. xo

  • April 18, 2017 - 9:05 pm

    Mabel - Its exactly what you feel and its completely fair to write about it. To get rid of that load of anger and frustration you feel sometimes. And Im sure you will read this post in a few years with a big smile on your face because you beat the sh* out of the mother effing cancer!!!!
    Lots of prayers to you!!